i watched a movie tonite called The Peaceful Warrior…i’d read parts of this book years ago and when i saw that it was out in theatres, i knew it would be great…it served as an excellent reminder of lessons i’d learned long ago…hadn’t mastered them, but i learned them…being…be in the moment…i’ve felt moments of this but, to say that i live my life always wakeful, always flowing with the moment? oh, that would be me tellin a big ol lie…so, the movie, which is based on a true story, resonated with me…
driving home i thought about the law of attraction and also these lessons i’d learned in my life…i thought about the main character of the film and the struggle he went thru to grasp that there is nothing but now…the past is past, the future yet to come, all we have is now…and what we do now is for the doing of it…not for the reaching of some high aspiration…to be truly happy means letting go of our attachment to the outcome…it either will or it won’t, she’ll either say yes or she’ll say no, you’ll either live or you’ll die…you can only control this moment…as i sorted this out i thought about how it is said we can consciously apply the law of attraction….you think about your life and you feel grateful for it…for all aspects of it…feel the appreciation, really feel it authentically…as you feel your joy for what you’ve got, you can begin to imagine those things you haven’t got but desire…imagine them as already yours, in this moment…feel your appreciation for these things, whatever they may be…and then, let it go…have faith that they are on their way…as opportunities arise toward attaining whatever the desire may be…take action, as needed and available…but, do not become attached on the outcome…be in the now…
i have struggled for a long time with this…i have a need for approval and it seeps into all i do, all i feel…to feel good about myself, i’ve spent my life trying to impress people…and trying to prove to them that their way is wrong…if only they would listen, really listen to me…they’d see a viewpoint they may not have considered…but wait…more and more i realize that, it’s not my place to sell anything…my experience is my own…theirs is their own…if they are on a similar trek and want to share with me their thoughts, so be it…if not…so be it….whatever happens is ok….
i really love to write and my desire has always been to be recognized for my work…i have ideas on how i can get my work out there…it occurs to me however that my reasoning isn’t just the financial abundance this would create…it is also another route to my agenda for approval…a prize to wave around so that i can be respected and sought…
i believe that once i let this desire go…the desire for approval…once my writing is solely done for the love of expression…this is when my dream will manifest…God wants me to explore my gift because it’s for me to explore…whether it is like by others or not, our Creator gave it to me…
right now is all we have…and so much is happening right now…it is more than enough…it is glorious…
